The Consciousness test – To live a life worth living
From time to time, I give myself a
consciousness test to see if I am truly alive or numbed by events
that day. The consciousness test involves asking myself a trivial
question whose answer I have to obtain in order to prove conscious
living. Sometimes I have the answer, sometimes I do not.
Example questions are thus.
How many stairs where there in my house
leading to the terrace?
Recite the poem, IF by Rudyard Kipling.
Remember an exact dialogue of a
character from a movie of my choice. Etc.
The consciousness test pulls me back
from wandering thoughts into reality. However there were times when I
have failed miserably in it.
Every time, I fail in the consciousness
test, it figured to me that the day was too hasty to be good. I hate
living that way. It may seem as if I am moving forward, but there is
not concrete qualifier for my improvement.
So I am lying on my bed yesterday night
and the idea hit me. Another test.
Task :
Note down all the sounds at this
instance and recite them tomorrow morning on my blog. I have to
remember them without losing any.
Here we go.
Sounds of the night
The ticking clock
The muffled sound of vehicles on the
street.
The air conditioner
Well, that was obvious. Going
deeper.
My head brushing against against the
pillow.
The refrigerator compressor starting
in the next room.
Heart beat.
Bed sheets against the bed and my hands.
Me breathing.
Going deeper.
Sound of me thinking this.
Sound of me thinking about writing this
in a paper. The pen against the paper.
Sound of silence.
That's all I can remember right now.
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